Fitness bum

I fell bad everyday because I think I lost my will power to start my exercise routine again. I don't want to go back to this old habit again. I don't want to tell myself major excuses just to save myself from going out early and jog. Tsk. Why is it so hard. Even if I taker Diet medication, I think it would still not be enough. It'll help but it's not the same as going out and sweating myself to fitness.